Work, Work, and More Work.

Life is so busy, but not busy enough. My endgame goal is simple; I wish to be a well-rounded knowledgeable man in many different areas. I don't intend on having one main "major" or focus. As for my physycial fitness personal standard, I only hold that as a test of my own motivation. I like to measure and improve my mental capacity where I feel it needs work.  Going to the gym just happens to be my current measure for my weakness of devotion. So to say the least, yes, I am proud of my work at the gym. Not for my physical gains, I could care less for those but for the mental gain.

Where am I going from here? I'm only 19 years old... I have a long way to go, especially since my high school "mix up" due to transferring school to school every year. For the time being while the military tells me I cannot attend college, I use wikipedia cross reference it's sources to ensure it's accuracy to learn of things I hadn't learned in school. But this is not enough for me, my thirst for knowledge exceeds self-teaching's limits, so I must pursue a  better source of knowledge. I intend on attending college classes while I am still working full time in the Air Force. I need to first work on my generals; for one, they are required for my CCAF degree that I will be starting with. And for a second benefit, the knowledge I am missing can be resolved in all my generals at a freshmen level in college. In order my areas of weakness are History, Literature, Civics, English, and then Writing being last. Writing is a weakness of mine, and I am well aware of that (I am the editor of my own story at the moment, I make a lot of damned mistakes). Those are also my priorities in order. I will not let myself have a weakness, not even if it comes to knowledge.


As for things outside of learning and working I have had some free-time still, which is nice for mental relief but I do not see as necessary. When college roles around this December I'm sure that free-time will no longer be existing. My mindset on relationships is finally starting to clear up from the whole ex-girlfriend relief period. It took me a while I admit, but no longer than the average human. I hope to start dating a few new girls before I decide to settle down. At the moment my goal age for settling down is about 23 years old or so. This way I have time to let the 21 madness settle down, and I get to meet and learn a lot about people. Actually, come to think of it my number one weakness when it comes to knowledge is that of social communication. I have much to learn when it comes to this topic, and I also intend on fixing this. Over time.

Changes

Perhaps it's just my age, but every day it's all I look for in my life. What can I improve? How can I change my situation? Is there a way I can go see the world today? You may think I'm shitting you, but I shit not these thoughts run through my head every time I find myself sitting down doing nothing of interest. That's why I end up starting random projects, and leaving them unfinished so much in my life. And it's also how I can simply identify most my problems in life come from a lack of motivation.

But recently my mind has cleared up a bit, mostly due to taking up my passion of writing once more, and high hopes of achieving many physical goals I've had for a long time. I had a very long time of no motivation, specifically right before and during my first year of military enlistment due to relationship problems and my own typical teenage angst bitching about life mood at that time. But recently, I've had a great boost of self motivation, which is exactly what I needed. Most of it comes from my two major goals right now which I just mentioned.

The book writing is going smoother than my last attempt to rewrite it. Which is my first boost, which lead me to making a blog for my book and myself to work on my writing skills. As for this weeks progress on the story, I will say I have only got about a quarter of the first chapter completed because my focus was on getting a certain blog set up, and because I was a lazy ass.

And for my physical goals, I have started running 5 days a week. I intend on getting my mile and a half run at least back around 9 minutes where I had it not too long ago. For this I made a great sacrifice (for me personally, most people wouldn't consider it so great). I'm pushing to cut out all unnecessary produced sugars from my diet. All snacks, candies, sports drinks, sodas, ect. I will allow them on social occasions, but in my free time I will not allow myself to grab these things any longer. Starting today. Mostly due to me eating a bag of candy corn (660 grams of sugar) and almost dieing on my last physical training session from said sugar. The cramps were horrible, and occurred after only half a mile of running. And persisting for the next mile and a half of the run until I quit with only a 2 mile run instead of my goal of 5 miles. Luckily I at least managed to run those 2 miles in 11 minutes 35 seconds. Which translates to about a 850 Mile and a half (with cramps).

Well that's all for now, thanks for reading =)

~~David "Aero" Smith~~